I read recently that Carrie Bradshaw (Sex and The City) could have been the first blogger. She essentially diarised the comings and goings in her life and those of her close friends. However, this was issued firstly in print format and then published books. She may be to blame (via product placement) for my writing this blog, but also writing it on my second MacBook. In Bridget Jones’s Baby, Bridget had moved on from a physical diary to journalling on her iPad. She also clearly found it therapeutic to write down her thoughts. She didn’t choose to publish them as a blogger. It wasn’t her ‘meal ticket’ as it was for Carrie (though like Friends with their ‘rent controlled apartment‘ she also lived a gilded life).
Anne Frank’s Diary
After my trip to Amsterdam, I bought (another) copy of Anne Frank’s diary. I’m currently re-reading that. Sometimes I feel sad and don’t want to read it, as you know the ending, but it’s also fascinating to read all the thoughts going on in her head. They were confined in a small place, but a whole microcosm was going on within that environment. She also (so far) has always had hope. We all have things that we don’t want the rest of the world to know about, but writing it down can help.
Month 5 of the new role
I’m now into my fifth month at my new role and things are making more sense. I can now complete tasks (still with a bit of help) and there is a lot going on. I know now if the motorway is bad I will get home eventually and the world isn’t going to implode if I don’t leave the house by 7am.
I will continue to blog about my journey (though I’m still learning this and am a novice blogger), and also work on developing myself using the Headspace App. Lately I’ve been listening to ‘Managing Anxiety’ again and things are resonating more. You hear different things by repeating things. I often feel that way about favourite TV and films. You can pick up different bits at different times. Some things are comfort blankets as well, for me that’s both Friends and Sex and the City.
As far as diaries go, I also have been filling out a Lett’s Five Year Diary and am now into my fifth year of it. What I notice from this is the cycle of events which seem to recur year-on-year. My emotions may follow a cycle, but people might drop round at similar times, or I might go to the same place and then a few days later realise I did that a few years ago too.
At work, I am starting to understand more about the everyday tasks, though my role will always have questions to deal with that I might not have done before. It’s a challenge, but it’s also good to solve the problem. I just prefer to feel in control and efficient. I’m also starting to understand the personalities of people in my wider team and also the relationships between them. Who are friends, who potentially aren’t. It’s quite interesting to be a bit of an outsider in that respect. I’m also starting to form friendships, but it seems to be a slow burn. This may have been the case at previous places, but I was at the last company for a long time so I guess my network was quite wide there. You forget these things quite easily.
The whole world of social media and bloggers does mean that we are documenting more and more about our lives. In the past, relatives might have been lucky to have a few photos at the end of their lives, now we have a digital footprint (some of which we might prefer to forget). The Queen is known to write a diary every night. Her musings would be quite fascinating I’m sure. The monarchy are also active on Twitter. See the photos of Prince Louis and Princess Charlotte released by Kensington Palace recently. Meghan Markle is also rumoured to have been an anonymous blogger before she became famous, and then launched another blog. The recent controversy about Cambridge Analytica and the introduction of GDPR (are you getting as many emails as me asking for you to opt-in again?) shows how much data people are giving away and the value of Facebook and the like show what it’s worth.
There are definite pros and cons to documenting life and ultimately it’s a personal choice. I recently gave my friend my old Fitbit and she likes it but is worried about the data she is sharing. With my job I am used to using lots of data and am ‘happy’ about the ‘value exchange’, but maybe I haven’t thought about the consequences enough.
It’s a lovely sunny day here. So enjoy today.