Big 40 hits soon
Turning 40 is starting to get to me. In my last post, my perspective was very positive and I was getting on fine, but as the day gets closer, I’ve started to unravel.
At work there are a few ‘events’ to celebrate my birthday, and I have a party as I mentioned so I guess it just becomes a bit more real.
A trigger may also have been my parent’s 45th wedding anniversary as I thought “hmm… I’m unlikely to get that”. We went on holiday and time to think which is usually welcomed became a bit of a crazy time for me.
I wasn’t sleeping that well. We were keeping busy going out and about doing things to maximise our time there. I then saw an article in the Daily Mail which said that “lack of sleep turns us into ‘social lepers'” and that made me feel slightly better. My Dad reminded me that I’m not unique, but it’s quite easy to get lost in thoughts in your own head. A good night’s sleep can right many wrongs.
It’s funny how what is essentially a number can play so much on your mind. I think it’s natural though to take time to reflect on where you are in life. A milestone like 40 is bound to do that.
Grease recently turned 40 so there are lots of good things the same age as me (including Garfield – see previous post). Kylie turned 50 this year and Madonna turned 60, so there’s a lot of milestones around.
Jennifer Aniston recently did an interview with InStyle magazine where she talked about her life stage and about society’s view on women without children. This again made me feel better. There are lots of people in the same position and life isn’t always a fairytale, or probably never is really (though I’m still a big Disney fan).
I can get into a panic about things and worry ahead of time, but actually if you just take each day as it comes then you can actually achieve a lot. Yesterday I spent much of the day on party organisation which made things feel a bit more in control.
Fearne Cotton writes in her Happy journal about how the summer holidays always felt like forever when you were a kid. This rang true with me. She said it’s because you are enjoying the moment rather than worrying about the future. It comes back to the whole mindfulness thing and to enjoy today. It is all that we have.
Beautiful Lake District
I recently spent two (separate) weeks in the Lake District. What a beautiful part of the country.
We visited lots of National Trust places especially those related to Beatrix Potter such as Hill Top. We also re-watched Miss Potter – it had to be done. Film and music definitely help to get you into the spirit of things.
We visited Allan Bank which is where one of the co-founders of the National Trust lived for a time, along with William Wordsworth.
The Fairy Steps in Beetham were tricky to find, but I pushed myself to climb them as I started over-thinking it and nearly bottled out. Next we went to Arnside on someone’s recommendations for fish and chips. The shop was closed and as we arrived rain was thudding down. We noticed people were sheltering themselves by the shops but assumed this was because of the rain, not knowing that there is a tidal bore so going into a pub for a meal (which was lovely – The Albion) we went from seeing loads of sand, to the water covering it. I imagine it would have been amazing to see. Apparently Helen Skelton sat in a canoe for CountryFile and travelled on the water coming in.
In Grasmere, which is a lovely village, I visited a local bookshop as my Mum was after a book in their window. This reminded me actually of Notting Hill (the film). Around the same time, JK Rowling put out a tweet about a second-hand bookshop she had visited on holiday. They hadn’t recognised her… I’m currently really enjoying re-reading Harry Potter. There are lots of good quotes in there that will appear in my Twitter in due course.
Next door was a little takeaway food vendor (Lucia’s) which we went to twice as we enjoyed it so much.
Returning to work
I went back to work and felt really welcomed by the team, so that made me feel good.
You can always draw positives and write gratitude lists if you do have a wobble in life. Of course there will be times that was going to be very sad, but for now enjoy today.