Returning to old ways
This month I have felt myself returning to old ways at work. For me, this is worrying about things when I probably don’t need to.
Of course, sometimes worry is a good thing as it makes you consider things in advance and plan so that things go smoothly. However, I used to think this would stop bad things happening and that’s certainly not the case. But, generally (read ‘probably always’ or ‘always’!) it really, really isn’t. It actually hampers you because you end up wasting energy, losing sleep etc which isn’t healthy.
It’s hard to change the way that you are, but equally a learned behaviour can be unlearned. Below I highlight some reading I’ve been doing to improve myself.
I’m now into my sixth month in the new job. I am definitely settling in, but there’s still a lot that feels new. I actually have my probation review tomorrow so fingers crossed!
This week I’ve been on a training course in London every day. Being in a ‘bubble’ of learning and a new routine for the week meant that I had ample time to read on the commute. In the last couple of weeks I’ve read two books that a friend bought me a while ago for birthdays/Christmas. One was Calm which I’m sure is well-known. The other was Lifestyle Essentials by Lisa B. This is a fairly old book (2008).
I found both really good. There were recurring themes in both and also lots of themes that I’d found were ‘calming‘ myself such as: walking in nature, sleep (!) and being creative. Lisa B’s book was a straightforward roadmap to getting on with things in life and I found it really useful and plan to keep both books on my bookshelf for future reference! I took note of Lisa’s advice to clean to Kylie. I’m sure I’ve mentioned I’m a big fan once or twice.
The training itself was for a product I will use in my job, however being in a different environment makes you think differently. There was a lot of content to take on board and I found it very tiring.
Further to a previous post which cited Carrie Bradshaw and Sex and the City, the programme recently turned 20 years old. There were various articles published which ‘wondered’ why the show still had appeal. For me, it’s a comfort blanket and I guess a source of hope.
I am a perfectionist and can also be resistant to change, so things like a solid routine and trying to be organised really help me out. Knowing there are shows like Sex and the City to fall back on and sometimes to fall asleep to is good to know!
I don’t know about you, but I go through cycles with reading. I do really enjoy it, but sometimes I get into a routine of watching TV in bed instead (and often falling asleep as above). My Dad literally said the same thing himself just the other day.
Another book that I read recently was about the economy. Sometimes I don’t feel as knowledgeable about the world as I should do. However, I actually made my Dad buy this book (he’d been reading others by the same author) because of the title ‘Talking to my Daughter about the Economy’.
“Happiness is like a butterfly; the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder.”
And on that note I will sign-off. Enjoy today.